The view is nice, is it not? Ever wonder what lies further up ahead besides new places to explore and all those other stuff?

Well, I sure as hell know what lies up further all right...

Anyway, I went over to ITE Tampines with Feroz for his Digital Video Effects test which seem to would have taken TWO freakin' hours if we actually stayed there.

Thing is, when I glanced over at the crowd of graduates, something hit me.

Was I REALLY gonna leave behind EVERYTHING?

And when I say everything, I meant my Secondary School friends, my family, my own social life...

I knew ITE was gonna be hard but lose touch with my friends? You want ME to do that?

Well, one word for ya:

NO.

I'll balance studies at ITE and my friends. I don't believe in leaving my friends behind anymore, not anymore. I might have done it when I was in Primary and that's cause most of them don't DESERVED to be remembered...

And should I be feeling any change? A change going from teen to pre-Adult? Well, let me tell ya, I'm NOT gonna change aite? I will always be that normal, easy-going, goofy, fun-loving guy and caring guy that you'll remember in Secondary School...

Anyway, after we ditched the whole Vid Effects test cause we had to wait in line for nearly a lifetime, Feroz and I headed to Far East Plaza for a bite at Carl's JR, and for those of you who don't know what kind of place Carl's JR is. You guys are missing out, it's the best Burger outlet ever. So great that even Burger King pales in comparison, I AM NOT F***ING JOKING

So during the trip there, we fell asleep on the bus and Feroz woke me up when we reached Far East. He then proceeded to tell me that my head was swinging around as I slept on the bus. I swear that idiot was making it all up, I do NOT swing my head when I fall asleep on the bus, man! Good God, I might have done some stupid stuff before but I know I WON'T swing my head when I fall asleep on the bus on anywhere else!

Well... It's true!

Anyway, here's a little something to promise myself that no matter how old I'll get, my heart beats with the passion for excitement as a Teen and the innocence and childishness of a kid...

Enjoy!

Grow Up - Simple Plan

Get well soon...

Ah shit, I really wanted to add in this part in my last entry. Oh well...

My wishes go out to Feezah now as she's kinda feeling the blues at the moment (For you guys who can't understand, she's sick.)

Anyway, get well soon ok Feezah? I know I'm being silent at the moment and it's cause I can't really say much to someone who's sick... I suck at comforting sick people though...

Deson't mean I'll keep trying though!

-Luis-

And there ya have it, folks. My Christmas party that lasted from 12 pm to about 3 plus in the morning. Yeah, I know...

Anyway, I wasn't much of a necessary guest since I LIVE in my house and all. But I still had to dress up nicely as seen in the pics above for the whole day, which meant I was in a long sleeved polo shirt with my black jeans, SITTING on my chair, playing my GAMES.

Ok, so maybe that isn't so hard to imagine...

Though I really got to thank my friends for coming down to celebrate Christmas with me. It's their first time ever coming to a Christmas party as their all Malay as the pics have shown above.

Ahem... On to my gifts then:

1. Shah, KhaiPendek and Huda got me a vase of flowers which totally made me raise my eyebrows to the hairline. But hey, it's a nice bunch of flowers and it will be remembered for the years to come.

Seriously...

2. Nashrah and her friend Nareefah bought me a box of Candy Canes. Well, daaaaaamn girl! I never teasted Candy Canes in my life and boy are they SWEEEEEEETTTT!

Ok, fine douchebags, I'll cut the Cowboy voice already, sheesh...

3. Feroz got me an NYC Raiders shirt which is amazingly awesome. Come to think of it, I might jusrt ask for clothes next year for Christmas...

Ok, maybe not...

Anyway, I could go on and on about the gifts I received, but my fingers are getting a little crampy at the moment. So this is where I hang my hat for now!

Take care everyone!

-Luis-

You better not shout, you better not cry...

Hey guys, it's nearly two days till Christmas Eve. And I'm psyched out for it, yeah, an 18-year-old beinh hyped up for Christmas like some little kid with a lollipop stuck in his little midget mouth. But hey, come on!!!

And to commemorate on the nearing Spirit of Christmas, I'm gonna list down 18 things that I wish for this Christmas! A special shout-out of thanks to Feezah, for this idea ;-)

1. TWO new XBOX 360 games (I KNOW for a fact that mMY present underneath the tree are indeed two new games! I felt it, Mum! You can't hide it from me!)

2. Denim Jacket (I mean seriously, dudes and dudettes, I'm sick of looking at every single teen in Singapore and noticing that all they wear are shorts, caps and a shirt!!! I mean, what happened to the jeans, shoes, jackets and shirts!!!)

3. World Peace (DON'T ask why...)

4. Polo shirts (Ok, I won't be explaining why... Look at my pic on Friendster and you'll know why)

5. Rocky Movie Set (Slyvester Stallone's a legend, a pure freakin' legend. And Rocky's my favourtie underdog and an inspiration to ALL.)

6. A video camera (I need it... Seriously)

7. Being able to stay out to whatever time I want! (Guys, I'm 18... Shouldn't I at least be able to go out anytime and come back at anytime without question?)

8. To never lose contact with my friends (I never want to... Too many memories)

9. Deodarant (I run alot... ALOT)

10. A guitar! (I really wanna learn how to play it though)

11. A good course in ITE

12. A vest

13. A tux!

14. A top hat (You know,... Those top hats... no?)

15. A book sounds good

16. A comic book???

17. A longer extension cord for my laptop (Seriously, have you SEEN my cord? It can't even stretch that far and I'm always freaked when the battery is hanging in MID-AIR!!!)

18. Another great year ahead filled with laughs, love, no arguements, no problems and total happinees.

Happy freakin' Holidays everyone!!!

-Luis-

Will...

Hi everyone...

What I'm gonna do now is post up a couple of things... Call it a will of sorts if you want...

First off:

To Arvind: I'm sorry if I put you through hell in Sec 1 and Sec 2 with racist and fat jokes. Time passed and I found that you weren't the little annoying kid like I used to know. I hope you'll find the heart to forgive me...

To Rafiq: Thanks for being the one I could confidate in. It's ironic that you talked to me when you had problems last time and now it is I who talk to you when I have problems. Thanks for listening, bro... Peace...

To Feroz: My main man... Thanks for being almost part of family, they treat you like a second son... They really do... Good luck for everything, bro... Peace...

To : Thanks for giving me a chance to start all over... Thank you for being so understanding. Thanks for your love and concern these few months. I'm glad we're talking like we used to again... Thank you...

To Rab: Even though we've known each other for a month. It's been a blast to get to know you, you're down-to-earth and simply amazing... Thanks for everything.

That's all right now... That's all I can manage to type out now... Pray for me ok guys? I'm gonna need it tomorrow...

-Luis-

AVGN...

Hey guys, lots of things have happened in the past few hours. I turned 18, I reunited with a friend, I got cake smeared on my face, a cake fight, went to the airport and slept at 4 last night.

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Yeah, I'm 18, so?

Well, with the big 18 on me now, it sure doesn't feel any different. I mean, I don't see myself growing any taller or anything...

Anyway, I've finally found someone who's as acid-tongued bout stuff as I am. Now this guy only gets peeved about bad video games and I get peeved about the dumb and useless things in life...

Anyway, without further ado, The Angry Video Game Nerd!



To see more of the Angry Video Game Nerd, go to ScrewAttack.com to see more of his vids.

Later dudes and dudettes!

-Luis-

Only time...

Wow... I'm blogging AGAIN...

Can't say much really... Except that much has happened and I've been going out rather a lot mostly to keep my mind off things and all.

Although the person I apologized to told me we could be friends again. (God, how loser-ish does that sound?) I felt a weight lift off my shoulders and for the first time, that moment. I could smile without faking.

But there's something bugging me, I got a feeling that the person hasn't really fully forgiven me at all. I don't blame her and I knew it wasn't gonna be easy getting her trust back...

And I'm not going to go into detail of how much it hurt the fuck out of me.

Anyway, I did manage a conversation with her about two days ago or so. It would have been a chance to catch up and all... Yeah, it would be if it wasn't so one-sided nearly the whole goddamned way.

I knew it was gonna be difficult but did it had to hurt like hell too? This is probably how God's way of telling me, "You fucked up, son. Now shut up and bear the pain of the broken friendship so you can get her trust back."

Yeah, I'll do that... You freakin' hypocrtitical self-loving facade.

Anyway, been hanging out with Farid a lot nowadays. Thanks to him working at IKEA and him and I keeping contact even after Prom Night, we've been hanging out from the early mornings to the dead of the night at my place.

We went to town a couple of times in the past few days and it was interesting to actually TALK to him. Yeah, even though we talked in class during the past 4 years, we've never really had a guy-to-guy talk if you know what I mean...

Anyway, I'll post up more on what Farid and I talked about the past few days tomorrow. I'm as tired as fuck and it's only 12:25 am... Goddamn it...

And my birthday's in 3 days already, seeing it's 12:30 now. 18 years old? Shit, I don't feel old... Which is a good thing... I hope...

And if I had to make my wish on that day itself... I'd wish...

No easy way out...

Second post of the night...

Below is a video taken from Rocky IV, possibly one of the greatest movie sagas in all times... This will probably give you an idea of what I'm feeling...

A thousand apologies and a prayer at stake...

Ok...

I kinda deleted the last post cause it kinda revealed a little too much... And it's VERY possible that a certain someone might see it...

No, I'm not here today to joke, make fun, romance, jeer or even mop around. I'm here to apologize... Even though I knoow this apologies might not work at all, It has to be done.

So here goes:

I know you harbour no feelings of care and concern for me at this moment. I don't blame you though... I was stupid and blind at that time, drunk with happiness and so full of myself.

It was wrong for me to drag your cousin into this. I shouldn't have included anyone else in this, I like you, yes, but that didn't give me any reason to ask any of your family members for help at that time.

I'm not gonna lie, I'm not gonna hide. It hurt like hell when you said that your trust for me had been demolished not by you yourself, but by me only. My mind went into a state of shock then,

I spent nearly 3 months earning your friendship and trust and with one single move, destroyed it without even knowing it.

You're an amazing person, you really are... I still can't believe what you said to me the day after the incident. The words are buried deep within and even if I could erase it, a mark will be left permanantley.

Those words pop up in my head nearly every single time I think of you. Oh God, why???

I don't care if you choose me as a BF or something. Right now, I just want your trust and friendship back, nothing else...

I always thought that you were gonna be one of the friends of mine that could last a long time and I just had to keep pushing and pushing. I've learnt my lesson though... I really did.

I remember the day when we first talked on the bus... I wish I could go back to that moment and relive everything that happened before and after that moment.

So after all I said and after everything that happened in the past few days. I just wanna know this:

Why?

Rejection, you're a funny one...

Well, it's been a while huh? Put those pitch forks down, I have a good reason for not updating a long time anyway...

So what's new? Well, I finished Siglap, danced, sung, got rejected and eagerly awaiting the Prom which is this Friday...

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Fine, I'm lame, sue me, b******

Anyway, this is where I get off. Till Friday, dudes!

I mean it...

Dear Blogger...

Wow... This is a surprise...

...



Ok, well, no it isn't...

Anyway, after a long hiatus, I'm back to blog my ass off in front of my laptop. Things are going OK though, except for a certain situation that happened last night.

Now, I'm in what some romantic movie-lovers would call a 'Love Triangle'. And from where I stand now...

I have no chance...

I KNOW, I have no chance... She likes the guy for 4 and I repeat, 4 YEARS. And he has secretly liked her for 4 years as well. I told her that I had a crush on her last night right after she told me the whole thing...

Then she tells me that she had a little crush on me as well...

And now, I'm in a stand-off, it's all in her hands now. Whose heart gets broken and whose heart doesn't. Me? I can only sit and wait and probably pray...

I wonder... If she doesn't chose me... How would that affect our Friendship? I've been in this game long enough to know how's it gonna go down...

Well, this is where I hang my hat for now... Later all and I MIGHT update sooner then you think...

Oh and I HATE 'N' LEVELS!!! FUCK IT'S FAMILY, FUCK THE GOVERMENT FOR CREATING IT AND FUCK THE EDUCATION SYSTEM!!!

Rambling done, initiate shutdown sequence in...

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Oh God, please don't let these freaks kill me

Ok, before you guys shoot off your guns or whatever the hell you have covering up. I'll tell you why I haven't been updating for the past couple of weeks...

Well, a LOT of things have been happening throughout the past month and I haven't have the time to update and all. And when I say a lot, I MEAN A LOT...

Hahas... Anyway, I've got another important date in my life... 290308.... Want to know why? Find out by yourself dudes and dudettes!!! Hahx...

But then again, you're gonna find out why in this next post!!!

Meh...

Ok, ok... I'm back like I promised... Hahas...

Actually, I wanted to talk bout something today...

Siblings...

Ok, so let's see... Little and older siblings...

Don't matter how old they are, their our brothers and sisters. You look at your little sister and you know at that very moment that you're gonna have to protect them with your life, when the time comes for them to grow up, You'll have to let go...

And then there's your little brother if you have one. One look at him and you see yourself, not really yourself but something similair but opposite...

What I'm trying to say is... Love your siblings, older or younger, their the ones who give you strentgh and somehow have this type of thing that always manages to get you out of situations...

Luis...

Don't hit me now...

Heyhey guys!!! Wassup?!

Ok, now I know I've been away for some time as usual.. Hahas.. So, yeah, let me fill you in on what's been happening.

I have finished my common tests and got awesome marks in English. WOOHOO!!! Take that non-believers and dickheads!!! How do you like me now?!?!?!?

But then again, I failed at Math again so yeah. =)

And can anybody tell me why my pic in my previous post isn't showing? Seriously man, I didn't wait several minutes just for it to appear as a freakin GRAY SCREEN!!!

Ok, calm down... *Takes subscription pills*

Hahx.. You guys really didn't think I was freakin out right? I don't take pills or anything seriously... LOL...

Anyway, this is where I get off... Till next time and it'll be soon I promise!!!

Happy V-Day...

Hey all, yeah I know I've been away for some time... Hahx... So let me fill you in on the details...

Chinese New Year- Ahh, good times it was that day, Feroz, Azmir and Huda came over to chill at my house, they received Red Packets in return, woohoo!!! And I got bout 7 Red Packets this year!!!

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Wait... 7? That's it?

Unfortunately yes... LOL...

Today- Well... We all know what today is now don't we? Anyway, I kinda wanted to dedicate a Valentine's Day song to Aqilah but seeing as she has an excursion today and probably won't be online until tomorrow or something. But its cool, the dedication can wait... Hahx...

Anyway... Happy Valentine's Day to all couples, stay strong and last long...

Later!

Go Feroz go!!!

Wassup dudes?

Hahx... Went to see Feroz perform live yesterday at Plaza Singapura. Man, was he awesome! But unfortunately, he had to leave after his performance so he couldn't spend time with us... LOL...

Anyway, after his performance, we went to Far East Plaza, ate Long John Silver with Khai, Azmir, Huda, Nashrah and Hannah. Then the girls wanted to buy chocolates... Hahas... Women... Can never understand them... LOL...

Anyway, I'll be sure to post up some pics of the outhing later! Cyah later dudes!!!!

New song dudes!!!

I've been meaning to put this song up for some time now! Even though its an 80's song, it's really awesome... Listen to the lyrics, dudes... Really... Hahax...



You,
Doin that thing you do
Breaking my heart into
a million pieces
like you always do
And you,
dont mean to be cruel.
You never even knew about the heart ache
I've been going through.

Well I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

I know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way
to let you know that
You'll be mine someday
Cause we,
could be happy
can't you see?
If you dont than let me be the one to hold you

And keep you here with me

Cause I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

I dont ask a lot girl
But I know one things for sure
Its the love i havent got girl
And I just cant take it anymore

Cause we
could be happy cant you see?
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
and if i know you you're doing that thing
Everyday just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

That Thing you do!!!

Heya blog, what's happening? LOL... Yeah, I haven't had much to write about the past few days, so here's my first entry for the few days.

Anyway, Feroz and Azmir came over after school to talk about our Chinese New Year concert, going up onstage to jam. So, we switched on my laptop and flipped through the lists of beats we wanted to use.

While good ol' Feroz was flipping through the beats, Azmir and I had a little down time with the XBOX 360. Boy, was he good at it, I never thought he was the gaming type seriously... LOL...

Anyway, I've got to write my part of the verses... Later dudes!

Ahem...

Ok, usually I only update at night but I've got to get some stuff off my chest...

Argh... Seriously, I have really bads timing...

Ok, so I'm talking about something that you won't usually find me talking about. But I just have to ask... Do I really have bad timing?

I mean, it all started with a certain conversation. I'm NOT going to say the name of the person I'm talking too ok... So, I was about to talk to this PERSON when the PERSON told me she had homework.

I feel like shit really, I feel guilty for distrubing her really. Even though she told me it was all right, I still feel really guilty... I mean, how would you feel if you were about to talk to someone online only to have the person tell you that she/he was busy?

I mean, the worse that could happen is that the person you want to talk to isn't the person after all but a relative or something like that?

Awkward much...

Anyway... Went with Dad to one of his StoreHub buildings in Geylang (For those of you getting those dirty ideas in your head, it's not like that.)

Helped him pile some stuff from the third floor to the fourth. It was ok though, got to eat out later.. LOL...

Anyway, I got some stuff to take care off... Later dudes..

Confusion...

I'm confused...

I don't know what to do or what to say... It's like I feel that someone I know, (I'm not going to say their name out loud) is mad at me for some reason...

I'm just so torn up right now... What should I do? Say? How can I approach this person?

I mean, I've tried everything really...

Riot on the rooftops...

Well, I'm back just like I promised, though it kinda took a tad bit longer then last time didn't it?

Now, there's something I'd like to say today...

Girl Troubles...

That's right, you heard me right...

Now, in a guy's life, everything looks perfect, Friends, family... Then along comes a girl then somehow everything somehow looks dark in the guy's life...

What I'm trying to say is... Be careful of which girl you chose to be with... You might end up regretting it.

This is not from personal expereince and I won't tell you even if I had expereinced it. This is from one of my friends...

YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME!!!

Well, I'm back dudes!!!

Yeah, I know its the first week of school and all but it's been a hell of a first week. I've got to see my friends again, so that's the good news.

Bad news?

Anwar made me cut my hair, ok so it wasn't that long but come on seriously... So I went over to Elias Mall and CUT my HAIR!!!

What do you want with my hair huh?! LEAVE ME ALONE!!! *Runs off screaming*

Ok, I'm calm already.

Anyway, Rafiq and I talked today. And well... He's kinda the main reason this song is here. This song is for you man, hope everything works out...



Shot through the heart
And you're to blame
You give love a bad name

An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passion's a prison, you can't break free

You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Shot through the heart
And you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name

You paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss good-bye

You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name