Dear Dad,

I remember how it was like those days. Do you remember? You were Batman and I was Robin. Even though we went through some rough times back then, you always managed to make me safe whenever you're around.

But of course, those days are over now isn't it?

What I'm trying to say is, that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't be YOU. Why can't you understand that? I'm not perfect, you know it, I know it, so why do you keep pushing sometimes? I'm not you, I never can or will be. I'm my own person, no one can change that, not even you.

I forged my own path in life, yes. But I'll stay true to it, true to your vision. You once spoke to me about goals and Destiny in life, I'm making my own goals and destiny now, do you even know that?

I know sometimes our conflicts get a lot heated then back in those days. Our ways of life clash every now and then, and everytime it wounds me to the very core until I can't utter a word to anyone. Yes, I've carved a path between my way of life and yours, I've tried so hard just to see you smile broadly at me. I've done everything to make you proud, is that not enough?

You taught me how to stand on my own two feet. There were others that taught me, my friends, Mum, Grandpa, Grandma but YOU, you were the one teacher that I'll never forget. Now I am, I'm on my own two feet, I'm ready to face whatever comes by and yet you don't think I'm ready, i understand. I'm not ready as well, but I WANT to ready myself, not by anyone else.

Could you possibly be missing those days when it was easy? Back when I used to run around with a care in the world and you sat there watching me approvingly, never hesitating to correct me if I ever did wrong. I'm ready to take flight but I'm reluctant, can't you understand that?

"It's cause you care about me" that's what Mum said. I've heard that before and every now and then, the small gestures make me believe it. But you have to understand that I'm not that little kid who ran around in his diapers with a chocolate ice-cream cone anymore. I'm 19 and I can make my own decisions. It's nt gonna be easy and I know you'll be there with me throughout the whole way. All I'm asking is a little space for myself. You're suffocating my mind with your plans for me, I make my own plans now.

Despite everything, despite our clashes in the past, despite what you said. I KNOW you love me, and I you.

With all my heart, Dad, I love you.

Luis

You know what's bullshit part 2...

You know what's bullshit?

Phone calls that occur at the wrong time.

Imagine if you will, a sunny afternoon, you're plopped back on your bed, you've got a whole month off from school, you put your feet up, turn on your XBOX 360 console, slip in the new game you just bought and begin playing.

Now 20 minutes later, you're intensely playing it. It's just you and the game in the world then suddenly the phone rings and nobody has the FUCKING COURTESY TO PICK THAT FUCKER UP!!!

I mean, what the HELL is that person calling the house for? If you got to talk to someone in the house, call the damn cell phone, don't raise the house phone bill call that person's cell phone! The house phone is for emergencies only goddamn it, I don't want it ringing every single 5 minutes!

And there are instances where the phone will ring at exactly 5 IN THE MORNING. Unless it's a REAL emergency, don't fucking call at 5am, it's annoying and unncessary, so don't call during the wee hours of the morning unless it's something important!

Remember the movie "Back To The Future II"? Where the house phones are being replaced by video calls through the widescreen TV or something like that, I forgot. If we don't have that kind of technology in the next two years, that's not slow progress, that's BULLSHIT.

You know what's bullshit...

You know what's bullshit?

Singhealth Polyclinic.

That place is bullshit.

First off, why do you have to take a number in order to see the doctor? It doesn't matter if I get a number to wait in line to see the doctor, I'm a patient, I wanna see the doctor cause my head is throbbing and that's final. I don't wanna stand in line to get a small slip of paper with a number on it to see the doctor, that's bullshit!

And there's the queue numbers. They don't always go in order and some people panic when it seems that they missed their numbers. Are those guys responsible for the number-change just fucking jerking off behind the scenes or what?

And sometimes it takes so long just for your number to show up. And when it does, your on the very verge of leaving the clinic already. So here's what to do, show up at the clinic, go on straight up to the doctor you wanna see, ignore the other patients and tell the doc your problem and advice your friend to do the same too cause the bullshit man said so.

Ok, what time is it...

10:42 pm...

Right, yeah...

I gotta tell ya, this past few weeks have really taken a toll on me. I've gotten in contact with some of the Express girls back in Siglap, ex-Express girls anyway. And we've been talking and talking and talking...

Well, you could say that...

And C'est La Vie occured not to long ago, on Saturday actually. It was awesome to see everyone again, well, not EVERYONE, just the people from the lower Sec's and ex-school mates who just rocks my balls off.

Now, do I REALLY have to post up the pictures? I'm feeling the laziness somehow...

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Oh, for the love of...

Ok, fine...






And there you have it, folks. If you wanna see more of the pics, you'll have to go over to my Friendster to view them :P

I don't give a flying cow-**** if you don't have a Friendster, just GO!!!

Yes, I'm absolutely evil ^^

Hey everyone, my name's Luis Lim. I live in an apartment in Queens, NYC, it's a small quiet little part in New York so I'm amazingly content. I'm currently attending a city college cause I prefer to be a little bit more closer to home.

During the weekends or sometimes after class, I'd go skateboarding in Central Park or jam with my so-called 'band' at one of my friend's house. I'm a normal guy who just loves any type of music, give me a genre and I'll something good to say bout it. Ask me to listen ro Rap/Hip-Hop and I'll list down my 5 favourite rappers, rock music? Any type would do, be it emo/screamo/Alternative, pass me the mic/guitar/drum sticks pronto.

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No, I'm not going off my rocker, guys. That section above is my ideal life. Yeah, you read that right. And it's the third post of the day?! *Fakes British accent* Preposterous! Is this really Luis, of my word!

Yeah, I'm bored and random, sue me anyone?

But really, there's a reason why I come by tonight. The below section is dedicated to one Nur Hafizah.

AHEM
Nur Hafizah also known as Feezah
Short term actually.
Man, where do I start?
Well, from the very beginning I guess
I first knew her on Friendster when she added me up.
We didn't really talk even though we were in the same school
For 4 long years.
And we just started talking this year, damn!
So, here's how it went, see.
I was on the bus on the way to my Church one Friday evening
It wasn't that crowded, Thank God.
I just so happened to look at the back of the bus
And there she was, listening to her MP3
I thought about going there to say hi
But I was kinda scared to cause I thought she didn't recognize me
As I neared my stop, she got up and walked to the back door.
She caught my eye and smiled
"Phew! She recognizes me after all!"
That was what I thought
We started to talk but the conversation was limited as we both got off the bus and she was headed the other way
Her house was just opposite my Church
Imagine that...
So we exchanged e-mails and we started talking online
We caught glimpses of each other in school but didn't really talk
Cause she was surronded by friends
She's a trustworthy person, friendly, easy-going
She teases and cares
She's stood by me and so did I for her
We would have long convos that would last for two hours or more?
Nowadays it's hard to have conversations that long as before
Due to her work and my classes at ITE/College
Whichever you wanna call it
I'm awesomely happy to still talk to her
Even though we're not together in school anymore
I'm even amazingly happy to call her 'good friend'
My only regret is that I didn't run into her on the very bus
4 years ago
Imagine how that would have turne out?
I do
Though we might not have those long conversations like we used to
Know that I'll be in your heart and mind through all the time.

-Luis-

Yeah, when I said that the second post was coming soon, my timing is impeccable, is it not?

Why am I updating several minutes after I just posted up my last post? Simply put, I'm bored. Yeah, that's right, I'm in my room, door closed and I'm bored.

So what am I gonna talk about?

Oh, i don't know, how bout the first half of my day today?

Woke up at 10, did my usual morning necessities before switching on my laptop. Toyed around with Friendster, Tagged and Facebook. Yeah, three social networking profiles for me, that's the limit, don't ask me to join something else like Bebo.com or some other crap.

So, talked to a couple of dudes/dudettes over MSN before I discovered that they were busy even on a Sunday, but hey, who am I to talk? Sooner or later, it'll happen and when it does, you're gonna start wishing a lot that you've spent more time relaxing cause we're nearly at the edge where we are about to be adults. We're in our teens, but for how long?

So anyway, I'mma end this rant now. I got a song to share actually. I'm a big Avenged Sevenfold fan, and this song really touched me, it makes me reminisce and all, did I even spell reminisce right?

Whatever.

Here's the song and for the love of God, listen to the lyrics before you judge!

Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold

Well, Valentine's Day has come and gone again. A special shout-out goes to all couples, stay strong and last long cause you're gonna wake up one day and all those memories will start flowing back, trust me.

Anyway, I had a plan yesterday, not those romantic plans as I myself don't have anyone to spend it with. Nope, I had a plan to surprise Feezah at McDonalds where she works.

Sounds simple, don't it?

Well, hear me out and see how this simple plan turned out!

Around 4 yesterday, I suddenly felt ill and had to lie in bed till the evening. Around the same time I was feeling better, Feroz called and asked me to go over to Hannah's birthday barbecue at Changi Beach. And being the good sport that I was, I mozzied my way down to his place and we headed to Changi Beach.

We reached there, photos were taken, ate the measly amounts of cake before I had a tought as I was staring at open sea in the darkness...

"I'm out, why don't I fulfill my surprise to Feezah?"

So the simple surprise/plan was back in motion. I slacked around there for a little while more before we headed back to Tampines Mall, Feroz headed his own way and I made my way to McDonalds where Feezah worked.

So I had it all played out in my mind, I opened up the doors and...

THAT IS ONE BIG HONKIN' CROWD!!!

If Mcdonalds was a carnival ride, out of the ride I go, the ride's full!

So yeah, I did spot her all right, tried once or twice to catch her eye before giving up and heading back home.

So, what's the lesson in this post?

When you wanna do something, DO IT QUICKLY AND EARLY!

So basically, that's my Vday for 2009. Now, I'm off cause my this little demon I call 'sister' wants my laptop.

Will update sooner then you think.

-Luis-