You better not shout, you better not cry...

Hey guys, it's nearly two days till Christmas Eve. And I'm psyched out for it, yeah, an 18-year-old beinh hyped up for Christmas like some little kid with a lollipop stuck in his little midget mouth. But hey, come on!!!

And to commemorate on the nearing Spirit of Christmas, I'm gonna list down 18 things that I wish for this Christmas! A special shout-out of thanks to Feezah, for this idea ;-)

1. TWO new XBOX 360 games (I KNOW for a fact that mMY present underneath the tree are indeed two new games! I felt it, Mum! You can't hide it from me!)

2. Denim Jacket (I mean seriously, dudes and dudettes, I'm sick of looking at every single teen in Singapore and noticing that all they wear are shorts, caps and a shirt!!! I mean, what happened to the jeans, shoes, jackets and shirts!!!)

3. World Peace (DON'T ask why...)

4. Polo shirts (Ok, I won't be explaining why... Look at my pic on Friendster and you'll know why)

5. Rocky Movie Set (Slyvester Stallone's a legend, a pure freakin' legend. And Rocky's my favourtie underdog and an inspiration to ALL.)

6. A video camera (I need it... Seriously)

7. Being able to stay out to whatever time I want! (Guys, I'm 18... Shouldn't I at least be able to go out anytime and come back at anytime without question?)

8. To never lose contact with my friends (I never want to... Too many memories)

9. Deodarant (I run alot... ALOT)

10. A guitar! (I really wanna learn how to play it though)

11. A good course in ITE

12. A vest

13. A tux!

14. A top hat (You know,... Those top hats... no?)

15. A book sounds good

16. A comic book???

17. A longer extension cord for my laptop (Seriously, have you SEEN my cord? It can't even stretch that far and I'm always freaked when the battery is hanging in MID-AIR!!!)

18. Another great year ahead filled with laughs, love, no arguements, no problems and total happinees.

Happy freakin' Holidays everyone!!!

-Luis-

Will...

Hi everyone...

What I'm gonna do now is post up a couple of things... Call it a will of sorts if you want...

First off:

To Arvind: I'm sorry if I put you through hell in Sec 1 and Sec 2 with racist and fat jokes. Time passed and I found that you weren't the little annoying kid like I used to know. I hope you'll find the heart to forgive me...

To Rafiq: Thanks for being the one I could confidate in. It's ironic that you talked to me when you had problems last time and now it is I who talk to you when I have problems. Thanks for listening, bro... Peace...

To Feroz: My main man... Thanks for being almost part of family, they treat you like a second son... They really do... Good luck for everything, bro... Peace...

To : Thanks for giving me a chance to start all over... Thank you for being so understanding. Thanks for your love and concern these few months. I'm glad we're talking like we used to again... Thank you...

To Rab: Even though we've known each other for a month. It's been a blast to get to know you, you're down-to-earth and simply amazing... Thanks for everything.

That's all right now... That's all I can manage to type out now... Pray for me ok guys? I'm gonna need it tomorrow...

-Luis-

AVGN...

Hey guys, lots of things have happened in the past few hours. I turned 18, I reunited with a friend, I got cake smeared on my face, a cake fight, went to the airport and slept at 4 last night.

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Yeah, I'm 18, so?

Well, with the big 18 on me now, it sure doesn't feel any different. I mean, I don't see myself growing any taller or anything...

Anyway, I've finally found someone who's as acid-tongued bout stuff as I am. Now this guy only gets peeved about bad video games and I get peeved about the dumb and useless things in life...

Anyway, without further ado, The Angry Video Game Nerd!



To see more of the Angry Video Game Nerd, go to ScrewAttack.com to see more of his vids.

Later dudes and dudettes!

-Luis-

Only time...

Wow... I'm blogging AGAIN...

Can't say much really... Except that much has happened and I've been going out rather a lot mostly to keep my mind off things and all.

Although the person I apologized to told me we could be friends again. (God, how loser-ish does that sound?) I felt a weight lift off my shoulders and for the first time, that moment. I could smile without faking.

But there's something bugging me, I got a feeling that the person hasn't really fully forgiven me at all. I don't blame her and I knew it wasn't gonna be easy getting her trust back...

And I'm not going to go into detail of how much it hurt the fuck out of me.

Anyway, I did manage a conversation with her about two days ago or so. It would have been a chance to catch up and all... Yeah, it would be if it wasn't so one-sided nearly the whole goddamned way.

I knew it was gonna be difficult but did it had to hurt like hell too? This is probably how God's way of telling me, "You fucked up, son. Now shut up and bear the pain of the broken friendship so you can get her trust back."

Yeah, I'll do that... You freakin' hypocrtitical self-loving facade.

Anyway, been hanging out with Farid a lot nowadays. Thanks to him working at IKEA and him and I keeping contact even after Prom Night, we've been hanging out from the early mornings to the dead of the night at my place.

We went to town a couple of times in the past few days and it was interesting to actually TALK to him. Yeah, even though we talked in class during the past 4 years, we've never really had a guy-to-guy talk if you know what I mean...

Anyway, I'll post up more on what Farid and I talked about the past few days tomorrow. I'm as tired as fuck and it's only 12:25 am... Goddamn it...

And my birthday's in 3 days already, seeing it's 12:30 now. 18 years old? Shit, I don't feel old... Which is a good thing... I hope...

And if I had to make my wish on that day itself... I'd wish...

No easy way out...

Second post of the night...

Below is a video taken from Rocky IV, possibly one of the greatest movie sagas in all times... This will probably give you an idea of what I'm feeling...

A thousand apologies and a prayer at stake...

Ok...

I kinda deleted the last post cause it kinda revealed a little too much... And it's VERY possible that a certain someone might see it...

No, I'm not here today to joke, make fun, romance, jeer or even mop around. I'm here to apologize... Even though I knoow this apologies might not work at all, It has to be done.

So here goes:

I know you harbour no feelings of care and concern for me at this moment. I don't blame you though... I was stupid and blind at that time, drunk with happiness and so full of myself.

It was wrong for me to drag your cousin into this. I shouldn't have included anyone else in this, I like you, yes, but that didn't give me any reason to ask any of your family members for help at that time.

I'm not gonna lie, I'm not gonna hide. It hurt like hell when you said that your trust for me had been demolished not by you yourself, but by me only. My mind went into a state of shock then,

I spent nearly 3 months earning your friendship and trust and with one single move, destroyed it without even knowing it.

You're an amazing person, you really are... I still can't believe what you said to me the day after the incident. The words are buried deep within and even if I could erase it, a mark will be left permanantley.

Those words pop up in my head nearly every single time I think of you. Oh God, why???

I don't care if you choose me as a BF or something. Right now, I just want your trust and friendship back, nothing else...

I always thought that you were gonna be one of the friends of mine that could last a long time and I just had to keep pushing and pushing. I've learnt my lesson though... I really did.

I remember the day when we first talked on the bus... I wish I could go back to that moment and relive everything that happened before and after that moment.

So after all I said and after everything that happened in the past few days. I just wanna know this:

Why?

Rejection, you're a funny one...

Well, it's been a while huh? Put those pitch forks down, I have a good reason for not updating a long time anyway...

So what's new? Well, I finished Siglap, danced, sung, got rejected and eagerly awaiting the Prom which is this Friday...

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Fine, I'm lame, sue me, b******

Anyway, this is where I get off. Till Friday, dudes!

I mean it...